The Day I Realised Sugar Has Taken Over My Life.

Yesterday I cried.

I cried because my best friend refused to allow me a bottle of Mountain Dew and chucked away my cigarettes. I reacted like a child, stomping my feet and allowing the tears to fall.

All because my 4-6 bottle a day habit had been snatched away. Sugar is my crutch, and it was gone.

She didn’t do it for fun, she didn’t intend to make me cry, she did it because just an hour or so before I had received a call from my doctor informing me of the results of my last blood test… it didn’t make for pleasant hearing.

I’ll elaborate on quite how much damage sugar has done to my body in another post. For now I need to focus on adapting to a sugar-free, smoke free lifestyle.

Despite that phone-call, despite the desperate look on her face as she whisked me around the supermarket filling the trolley with iron-rich foods and supplements, all I could think about was the drinks aisle.

I hadn’t had a bottle of Mountain Dew since breakfast and my mind and body were crying out for a sugar fix.

I don’t know what I’m more ashamed of, the way I reacted or what I have become.

Perhaps I’m ashamed of the fact it’s gone this far before I’ve taken action, I’ve attempted quitting sugar before, and failed within 24 hours.

I have allowed myself to fall into a vicious trap of sugar, processed food and cigarettes and I care too little about myself to do anything about it.

Until yesterday I lived each day swinging from one sugar high to the next. Today I feel exhausted, shaky and edgy. This is all my body has known for more than 10 years.

Can I break the habit this time, before it’s too late?

The truth is, if it was just for me, I couldn’t. But then I look at Mia and Theo’s faces, at the faces of my friends and family, and I know I have too.

Yesterday I realised sugar has taken over my life, today is the first day of a whole new chapter.

I’m hoping that with the support of good friends and family, and websites such as this one, I’ll adjust quickly and embrace life without refined sugar. Wish me luck…

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  1. Sara 12th August 2017 / 9:15 am

    I can understand your pain. I became a sugar junky during this last pregnancy and needed sugar to get through the day post pregnancy. 4 months post baby and I would find myself shovelling marshmallows, jelly babies and sweet coffee down my throat, and even eating chocolate spread from the jar with a spoon! This was not me, I don’t have much of a sweet tooth normally, I was disgusted with myself and what I was doing to my body, my teeth and what that volume of sugar was doing to my milk?
    I went cold turkey and img I felt horrid for 48 hours, ill, headaches and as though I was full of cold, but after 48 hours it got better, I didnt crave it. A week later I stopped thinking of it, and now 2 months later I’m not enjoying surgery food, it tastes horrid and makes me feel sick.

    It’ll be hard, but you can do it. I did find replacing my sugar craving moments with sweet juicy fruit helped.

  2. Evey 12th August 2017 / 9:24 am

    I relate to this so much! For me it is chocolate and biscuits rather than drinks or cigarettes but it is so real!

  3. Glutarama 12th August 2017 / 10:07 am

    Going cold turkey is not easy, and I’m the last person to give you advice re sugar (I’m terrible)…although I do have Bethany to think about of course! funny how we do completely different things for ourselves than our kids! Just set yourself mini targets….today, tomorrow…not a month and forever….one day at a time, then all you have to do is one day and each day you feel your winning! xxx

  4. Rachael Anne 12th August 2017 / 5:52 pm

    All best in your sugar free journey. I am addicted diet cola. Not as bad as full sugar but not v healthy all the same x.

  5. pinkiebag 16th August 2017 / 6:34 pm

    Hi, good luck with going cold turkey, sometimes we need a polite kick up the bum to point us in the right direction. Just take each day as it comes and set little realistic targets and I’m sure you will get there #dreamteam

  6. Rhyming with Wine 18th August 2017 / 8:29 am

    I’m with you on the sugar front. It’s my biggest downfall. I don’t drink or smoke but I have a dangerous cake and biscuit habit. I applaud you for taking the leap and cutting out smoking too which is a huge accomplishment. You’ve inspired me to go sugar free today and see how I go from there. Good luck lovely. Thanks for linking to #DreamTeam x

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